Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Just For You
As I previously mentioned, Future Priest gave me "The Passion" for Easter. I have been sick in bed for two days so I finally got a chance to watch it. My goodness... it really was something. It was graphic but not as graphic as I expected it to be. I was deeply affected by it. I watched it last night, and when I woke up this morning (and all through the day) I couldn't get it out of my head. Not the violence of the crucifixion - more like my impression of the entire movie. The impression lingers still.
Now, what I am about to say must be read with the understanding that I am, at bottom, a Christian after all. While I was watching the movie, I was thinking about Buddhism and all the other things that swirl around my brain and I found myself asking, "What did Buddha ever do for me?" I mean, he had some great thoughts, but that was mainly because he wanted to figure things out for himself, no? Even if he did do it for others and not himself, that simply lumps him in with every other great teacher. In Christianity we are presented with the idea that God Himself is so intensely interested in my welfare (and yours, and hers, and his, and so on) that he would be willing to be crucified. It's mind-blowing. I also kept thinking that as bad as my current situation is, I have no idea what real suffering is. The trial I am dealing with is a joke in comparison to the suffering of Christ. (I understand that the only way anything I have just said makes any kind of sense is if you believe in the divinity of Jesus, and as I've stated, this is the case with me. So pardon me my bias.)
I don't think Future Priest realizes how much of a blessing he is in my life. Hopefully he does now.
Note: I will keep my question of why Jesus is always portrayed as a white guy to myself. Come on, Mel, you were all for accuracy when it came to language...