Tuesday, April 01, 2008

The loss of a parent is something I had hoped not to have to experience so soon. All I can say is, I don't know how so many people deal with this very terrible event. If you think about it, most people lose both of their parents in their lifetime. It is practically a universal experience.

I am home now, answering hard questions about God, heaven and why this had to happen from Kid Sisters #1 and #2. Sister has kidney stones, so an emotionally painful time is compounded by a physically painful condition. My mother is strong, as always, taking care of all of the preparations, but it is hard for her. "I'm with him since I'm 13," she reminds me.

I will probably continue to blog because there is little I can do with myself right now. I would appreciate a prayer or two on our behalf for the wake and burial this week. I don't know how I am going to react to seeing my father's body in person.



Heather said...

No, no, it's never an easy thing. I lost my dad when I was 8 and my mom just a couple years ago. Plus, I was raised my grandparents, so when they died, it was like loosing my parents. It isn't easy and it doesn't get much better. The pain will fade, but it stays there in some small way, always.

The only way to deal is to just get back to life and try to live it. Remember him. Remember the good and the bad for both made up a piece of who he is and who you are as well. Take it one day at a time. I have already said a prayer for you, but will continue to do so as you learn to find your way in this new world. For that is what it feels like, doesn't it?


And you always got me to help keep ya laughing, at least fer a li'l while.

Andi said...

I would echo what Heather said, having lost my dad when I was 18. The pain never goes away completely, but time helps dull it. Remember the good stuff, focus on that, and let your family and friend help carry you through.

Amanda said...

hugs and prayers for you dearest... You and yours are in my thoughts.